Friday, May 18, 2012

Social Security is ENTITLEMENT?

I received this by email and thought I'd pass it along....


Probably like most of you, we have our checks direct deposited. . . so we never see them. (and after that, the money goes so fast you have to look quick!)

Have you noticed, your Social Security check is now referred to as a "Federal Benefit Payment"?

I'll be part of the one percent, to forward this, our government gets away with way too much in all areas of our lives, while they live lavishly on their grossly overpaid incomes!


This was sent to me, I am forwarding it because it does touch a nerve in me. Remember, not only did you contribute to Social Security but your employer did too. It totaled 15% of your income before taxes. If you averaged only $30K over your working life, that's close to $220,500.

If you calculate the future value of $4,500 per year (yours & your employer's contribution) at a simple 5% (less than what the government pays on the money that it borrows), after 49 years of working you'd have $892,919.98.

If you took out only 3% per year, you'd receive $26,787.60 per year and it would last better than 30 years (until you're 95 if you retire at age 65) and that's with no interest paid on that final amount on deposit! If you bought an annuity and it paid 4% per year, you'd have a lifetime income of $2,976.40 per month.

The folks in Washington have pulled off a bigger Ponzi scheme than Bernie Madhoff ever had. Entitlement my foot, I paid cash for my social security insurance!!!!

Just because they borrowed the money from the fund - which was promised never to happen - and never paid it back,doesn't make my benefits some kind of charity or handout!!

Congressional benefits ---- free healthcare, outrageous retirement packages, 67 paid holidays, three weeks paid vacation, unlimited paid sick days, now that's welfare, and they have the nerve to call my social security retirement entitlements?

We're "broke" and can't help our own Seniors, Veterans, Orphans, Homeless. In the last months we have provided aid to Haiti, Chile , and Turkey . And now Pakistan ......home of bin Laden. Literally, BILLIONS of DOLLARS!!!

Our retired seniors living on a 'fixed income' receive no aid nor do they get any breaks while our government and religious organizations pour Hundreds of Billions of $$$$$$'s and Tons of Food to Foreign Countries!

They call Social Security and Medicare an entitlement even though most of us have been paying for it all our working lives and now when it's time for us to collect, the government is running out of money. Why did the government borrow from it in the first place? Imagine if the *GOVERNMENT* gave 'US' the same support they give to other countries.

Sad isn't it?


Sunday, April 1, 2012


These past several weeks since  my father's death, I've come to realize several things. Actually, just one really large thing, but it impacts how I see everything. If you don't believe in God, then stop reading now and move on to something else.

Who hasn't seen The Matrix? If you haven't, you should. Just the first one. The subsequent ones weren't worth anything.

But the concept was incredibly unique. And one that fits for this life. We are living in a temporary existence that isn't real. Anything we do here has no real impact. Our accomplishments. Our failures. How much money we have or don't have. How many children/friends/goods we have. Because the moment you leave this world, you leave it all behind. Permanently.

"Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
And naked shall I return there."

In reality, we are pretty free to do what we want. I don't believe in "predestination" and "trying to figure out what God wants me to do with my life." The people he wanted to use he normally sent an angel into their living room and made it very clear. I have received no such angel. I've not met any who has.

God gave us some very simple laws to live our lives by. The entire contents of which fit into a pamphlet sized book. Not all of the Bible is law. Most of it is history and writings. But very little of it is actually what you would call "law". How man has managed to turn it into something so complicated is beyond me. Anyone who is a true scholar of the Bible could only agree. Christ summed it all up nicely with, "And just as you want men to do to you, you also do to them likewise."

James expounded upon this with: "Therefore, to him who knows to do good and does not do to him it is sin."

I also do not have time to sit and read the bible all day; personally I think it would be a boring existence and not one that God expects of us. I have to work and make a living to support my daughter and myself. Most people have to do the same. But when I'm alone, I do keep a running dialogue going with Our Lord.

But I digress.

We have put so much stake into this life. Even most so-called religious people. They look at how much they "have" as a testimony to "I must be doing something right in God's eyes." When in reality, it's just a matter of how hard they were willing to work for it, or how talented they were, or how lucky they were. Usually a combination of all these.

This life is nothing more than a stop-over on the way to eternity. Having said that, I do see that it IS how we conduct ourselves in this life that will determine our eternity. My goal is to live my life so that God looks at me and says, "Well done, good and faithful servant; you were faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your lord," regardless of what I leave behind in this world.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Thinking out loud....

I've kept busy this week. I actually cancelled my subscription to Star Wars: The Old Republic because I just don't want to play it any more.

I want to sleep, but find it difficult. I end up taking short naps in the late afternoon and evening.

I've worked until quitting time, then I quit.

I've gone for walks with my daughter.

I found an old afghan crochet project that I'd started sometime back in 2006 after Thanksgiving that had only about 10 rows on it. I've since done 11 rows.

I worked on a website project that I've been meaning to get done, but haven't had the time or sanity to get to.

I'm trying to stay off the computer as much as possible, but just cannot seem to manage it.

I quit cooking.

I don't sleep under the covers. Instead, I throw another blanket on top of me as I sleep on top of the bed covers.

I'm sad but don't want to be.

Everything in me has changed, but I'm not sure how or why. I don't feel like the person I was last week, and yet I am.

I get frustrated more easily.

I read in bed for the first time in years.

I watched late night shows with my daughter and laughed at some really bad TV.

I'm not letting my blog lapse for months.

My mom's 79th birthday was today. I sent her flowers.

I'm sleepy and going to bed. Gnight.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

One More Ending

Robert Louis Cooper, born in April 1932, passed away this morning from liver cancer after lapsing into a brief coma. When I think about this, I'm so sad because I'll not get to talk to him again for a very long time. But when I think about his life, the first thing that comes to mind is that movie "Second Hand Lions".

Remember at the end after Michael Caine and Robert Duval have died by flying the airplane through the barn and Haley Joel Osment's grown up character shows up to assess the situation? The arab prince and his son fly in on an helicopter to pay their respects. The prince and Walter chat about the men and the prince's young son responds, "Those men really lived?"

And Walter looked around, thinking about everything they had done and replied, "Yes. They *really* lived."

My parents have really lived. During their 60 years of marriage, they moved nearly 80 times -- most of it in the oil business -- having three children along the way. They have 6 grandchildren, and their first great grandchild will enter this world next month.

They have either lived in or visited approximately 60% of the United States, including Hawaii and Alaska. And have traveled all the countries in the North American continent.

Growing up in this family has been  an education in history and geography, and I find I'm better versed on the subject than most just for being a part of it.

My father was an example of what a man, husband and father should be -- I've found very few to be his equal. He believed -- and lived -- the basic principal of James 4:17: "Therefore, to him who knows to do good and does not do it, to him it is sin."

There is no way that I can express the kind of man he was in these few feeble words -- it would take multiple volumes to do it any justice. Just know that this world is less one good man, but his very existence made a difference.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

I have no life....

Ok, so here I sit.

Been chasing down bad guys on my server for days. Finally find where they are putting stuff. Had the devs look at the code to see what it was doing, they really couldn't tell me, but they said it was probably bad. They also said it was .cgi, which no one uses any more. So we just turned off .cgi services on the servers which essentially cut them off...for now. So I'm no longer in panic mode.

But we had our internal DNS on those servers and last week when those bast***s brought my servers down, they also brought down our DNS. Sigh. So now that I can take a deep breath, I'm sitting here, at 8pm on a Thursday night setting up a new server so we can move DNS.

Sad thing is, I don't have any where else to be or anything else to do really except set up a server from my parents' house (remember, Dad's dying of liver cancers -- yeah, we got an updated diagnosis on that too since I last wrote).

I think I'll take a break and go watch Person of Interest while I wait for the Cloud to set up my server.

Monday, January 30, 2012


My dad was recently diagnosed with Pancreatic cancer.

I don't know if this type of diagnosis can ever come at a good time, but it definitely came at a bad time for my family. My parents have just sold their house and are currently in the process of packing up to move in with my sister.

He'll be going in for a second opinion next week -- my sister and her husband are picking Dad up and taking him back to their house to go to a doctor there. He'll be staying there at that time. Mom and I are going to pack up their house in the meantime. While it's great I'll be spending time with my mom, it's going to be a heart breaking exercise because the trek through time is going to mean we are closer to needing to moving on without Dad.

Mom has been a trooper through this whole thing. Dad seems ok with it too. Mom turns 79 in March, and Dad turns 80 in April. They've laughed the whole thing off with "well, we're nearly 10 years past our expiration date!"

I'm glad they are in good spirits, but the thought of losing my parents has been a gut wrenching one.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

One More Ending

Got a call from the realtor yesterday saying that our house was closing and they needed us to sign the papers today. I wanted to do one last walk through on the house before we did so.

Ended up, the title company's computers went down (huh?) and they couldn't print the paperwork (why wasn't that already printed out?) so they'd have to put it off until tomorrow (sure).

We still did the walk through on the house. First time in over a year. It was depressing. With Ian leaving this summer and the house going away, I just really feel as if the last 20 years have been taken away from me and I'm having to start from scratch. While my CSO is getting remarried, buying a house, and taking our sons with him.

No, life is not fair. And karma does not always prevail.